study~!

kinda energetic today...
went to bed very early last nite...
around 9...? dun really rmb d..
cz i really couldnt do anythg...
wanted to study...but i really couldnt...
and i was just so stupid dat i already knew i wil gt sumhw distracted, think this and dat after seein all those...
but stil i couldnt help to stop myself fr clickin it...
pek chek of myself til the MAXXXX...
i noe if i stay awake i would surely hd created trouble again...
so in order to avoid all these...i forced myself to bed...
fallen aslp would atleast escape me fr facing all those thgs...
so i did nthg again last nite...>,<
i can concentrate quite well in the lectures tis mornin...
i really gota study hard now...
i hd been wasting my 2 months and gt so many thgs piled up...

books & notes i hv to munch in...and thr's more cumin in >,<

i must really catch up or i wil surely fail my finals..

aja aja fighting ah qi~!

p/s : happy birthday MAG~! hearts eu~!

KL

im back to kl d...
reached kl around 5 in the evening ytd..
but it took me kinda long to get back from kl sentral to uni...
cz i gt ticket quite late...so cant gt ticket for the bus i took b4 dat...
under no choice i hd to take plusliner which stopped at ktm centre instead of pudu...
i was kind of duno where to go actually...
cz it's my first time there and i was alone...
i was tol dat there'll be a LRT station linked togthr wif it...
but then i din even see any shadows of LRT...haha...
so tried to ask the people there...but then it seemed dat he's nt very sure...
so fine...i went straight to the police counter and asked...
the police showed me the direction...thx to her...
afta approxiately 20mins walk finally gt to LRT, heading to masjid jamek station...
stopped by at McD to grab sum food...
and i split the whole cup of coke at the counter >,<
duno what i was really doing too...geram...
then walked to pudu...grabbed ticket for this week and raya...
it was already 7smthg dat time...
took LRT again back to uni...it was real crowded...
luckily there's a gentleman dat gv me his space at the corner there...
though i stil nid to stand...but at least it's safer there...
nid not sked wil be "pok mong"...(thick-skinned me XD )
at the end...only reached my room 8 smthg...
real exhausted~!

Queensbay

went qb today wif my family...
daddi and ling went boarders while mummy and i went for shoe-shopping...
i seriously need a pair of wawa shoe for class....
the previous pair i was wearing gt torn on the day i was back for break...
qb is stil exactly the same...but thr's a big diff that he's nt longer besides me this time...
many memories popped into my mind randomly while shopping around...
escalators baskin robin breeks cineplex boarders MNG
it seemed dat thr's shadow of his everywhr...
the scenes of him standing in the middle of the "husbands" crowd,
waitin me to try on my clothes out of the fitting room and being looked weirdly like one kind in MNG...
hanging around at boarders, reading the same book togthr hugging...
closing up my eyes and kacau me "kenot see" wheneva passing by The Underwear Shop...
all of these are just stil so fresh in my mind... ... ... ...

lesson

""let it go....eu can hv better choice perhaps..."
.
" it shouldnt be everythg of ur life...eu are stil young..."

.
"eu hd been doin well too in the pass 14years without him b4 dat...thr's no big deal...eu are only goin back to the very 1st point...im sure eu can do it..."



thgs arent as simple as eu tot when it's nt on eu...
exspecially when eu noe it's our own fault...

and try hard to compensate,,,

tat's wat i hd learnt....

loss of weight~!

woke up late today....
it's very late in fact...
i din really notice what the time was actually at first...
i just gt up...grabbed my cell phone and sent out a text, blurly...
and then walked out of the room wif my eyes half-opened...
heard sounds fr kitchen..so i tot it was almost lunch time...
tot makcik and ah ma were preparing lunch...[in fact they were prep ingre for dinner]
BUT...once i saw ah ma...
" eu scared us ler eu noe...we tot dat what happened to eu...so late d stil havent woke up...went to ur room and touched eu..ur hands and legs were cold...tot what happened..gt fainted or what...luckily saw eu stil breathing...noe eu are just sleeping..."
and i was like..." huh? very late d meah..."
glanced over the clock...it was already 3 smthg~!
then only i knew it was dat late d... >,<
ah ma cooked me smthg to eat...
then spent sumtime watching dvd...on9...
and then went for ronda in the evening again...
went to the mountain there..
many thgs popped into my mind dat i couldnt bear anymore...
so decided to go home only afta a while...
bumped into kiwi and ning chao...but they din see me i guess...
glad to see them so sweet by the way...*blesses for them**
then reached home...
saw the weighing scale besides piano...
it hs been ages that i din weight myself...
the last time was b4 entering uni i guess...d last reading was 42kg...
i din feel dat i gained or loss weight...
but lots of them too was like " why eu gt so thin ki...?'
so i weighted, expectin it'll be more or less 40...
but surprisingly...it was only 36kg~!
i couldnt believe my eyes and asked ting to gt d reading again...
and confirmed...im only 36 now...
i loss 6kgs in 6 weeks time~!
must not let daddi noe dat...or i surely kena d...

dedication : 借口

翻着我们的照片

想念若隐若现

去年的冬天

我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸

对着我说再见

来不及听见

你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我

也许已经很难回头

我知道是自己错过

请再给我一个理由说你不爱我

就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我

请不要把分手当作你的请求

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的借口

请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果 我也能够承受

我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容

如果要走 请你记得我

first day of hol

back to penang...
gt up on 8smthg...
went usm to meet up bei bei at 9 smthg...
tot of only finding her nx week...
wana brg her for laksa...she missed it during her last trip...
but she has holiday and taking today's flight back to johor...
so we made it this morning...save laksa for nx time ler...
then reached home around 11...
duno what to do...
so decided to wash my car...
my makcik said dat im kind of crazy, washing car under the hot sun...
and called me to leave it...she wil later wash it for me...
but i insisted...i just wana make myself bz...
so she teached me how to use the brush and pipe set mum just bought...
it's actually be designed only base on simple physic theories..
but amazingly it makes car washing much more easier...
credits to the smart innovative ppl who designed it...
done around 1smthg...

my baby smart afta taking bath...clean leh..? XD

rested...went paktor wif my car...
drove around...really nid to gt more familiar on how to drive it...
and smthg happened out of my expectation...
tried to ctrl myself...
went back home straight away and took a nap...
gt up on 3smthg...
he said he's nt going..
sumhow i just feel like going...but it's weird to go alone...
but duno wat to do at home...
i drove there too at d end...
reached but saw it was there...
i patah balik..better not still...
i just seriously duno what the hell me myself really doin...stupid me...

let me go home~!

jz finished packing...
and i found dat i gt just so many stuffs to bring back...
im sure daddi wil be laughing at me again...
tot of bringing back atleast a book for each subject...
but they are really too heavy d...
if i were to bring all of them....
they weight me atleast 10kg i guess...>,<>" nid not brg so many books mia...cz eu wil end up hv no mood studying too eh...so just brg materials for one subject wil do...if eu can finish revising dat subject tio very geng d..."
it's just about half a day more to go from now...
im really looking forward to it lo...
it's 3 weeks fr i last went back d...it's the longest period of time dat i din get back so far...
i really miss everythg in penang...
can the clock just ticks faster plz?

it's 12 again

it's 12.13pm now...

the calendar turns fr 11 aug to 12 aug...

yup...it's 12 again...

and i just cant stop myself thinkin back the past 45 12s...

mixed feeling

just back fr kps for duty...
my shift for today is from 9 til the stall close....
my leader actually planned to let guys to do this slot...
but due to my pack time table...i really hv no time to exchange my slot wif the others...
so thr's no other choice but to accept it...
when i joined...i were tol at the lastest til 12 nia...
but end up to be so...this is the 1st and also the last coll activity i join i bet...
as thr's nobody that i noe duty tonite..
n the brainless pengarah stil wana drag on wif a pointless meeting wif the seniors in-charge ..
which might last for hours...perhaps only can gt back on 3smthg if i gota wait?
so i hd to walk back alone again...
but this time even further away than fr my fac...
it was really cold and quiet...
i was kinda sked actually..
tot of calling sumone on the phone...in case anythg happen..
but it's already 1 smthg~~! everyone sleeps d...
so wat i did was gripping tight on the umbrella...
and my cell phone in hand...praying hard dat i'll be safe...
thank god dat thr's no "suspects" appear....phew..
on the way back...many random pits and bits of us played in my mind...
the happy moments...anniversaries...argues..the future plan we used to look forward to...
the break ups and patching back..the courages and faith we used to hv in each other...
and now he's tired...so tired dat feel like giving up...
i noe he can hv better choice...i dun deserve him...
but selfishness is the nature of human being....
the biggest weakness of human being...
i feel very very bad for the hurt and pain he feels....
i wish to compansate...
i noe letting him go is perhaps better for him...
but to say "yes" to it....to let go are really hard....
mayb what i really need is time...
time to accept and learn to put down the selfishness in me....
learn to love him in a diff way...

Outings

went to meet up fishy at klcc this noon...
she came wif her family...but then they gota attend a conference at kl conv centre...

so fishy and i hd our own sweet time hanging around at klcc...

we hd our brunch at nando's....and for sure...we hd a great chat again..

glad to see her seems alright d...

she kept telling me dat how entao and cute wilberd pan is....(she went TAC coll for him ytd..)

make me so jealous nia...hmp..hahha..

fishy.qi

heading back to coll around 3.30 then...
cz going out for dinner wif my family members...
my uncles, aunt and sum cousins came over...
it's not our family gathering actually...
but it's sum kind of...duno what association mia anni ler...
and our company booked 2 tables...
as im in kl...so im in the to-go list for sure..
same goes to shern, chong and their gf (yixiu and xiaoxian)
the dinner itself was kind of boring...
but we the cousins try to make fun out of it and snapped lots of pics..

[yixiu].[jingai].[xiuqi].[xiaoxian]

and my kuku keep kacau me and ah chong by calling us "Dr Wong"...
" We are waiting for eu to graduate leh...by the time we are old enough to make denture d.."
i just duno hw am i supposed to tel probably i wont be one d if i cant pick up right hand...
but to say "aiya...so many years to go kok..." wif a smile hung on....

ACNE go away~!

gt up quite early again today for meeting...
but when i was down at dtp...i din see anyone there...
so called to my team leader...only i noe dat it's cancelled >,<
back to room then...
looked at the mirror and i really gt a shocked...
lots and lots of acne on my face~!
should be lack of sleep i guess...
only gt to sleep averagely 4 hrs for the past few days...
grrrrr~~!!!
really wish holiday cums faster ler..
how cum this week seems to be so long...
i really miss everythg in penang badly =(
i wana go home~! let me go home~!

lonely night

just back fr faculty...
it's the dental sfs nite today...
overall the function was stil okay...
not very fun nor it's very boring la...
it ended around 10 actually...
but then afta dat hd photo session and sum refreshment...
and all of them wil spend their time wif their buddy at this time...
the whole group of ppl of the same buddy line wil take pics..
sit down...chit-chat while eating...
and as i hv no buddy...
so i was kind of like sitting just aside alone...
though there are seniors dat's kind enough dat ask me to join them chatting...
but stil sumhow they are talking bout their buddy stuff...
which im kind of akward to be there or to join their conversation...
so i left afta around an hour and as my roomate was chatting wif her buddies...
might til kinda late...so she asked me to gt back by my own 1st...
since that i hv no choice but to walk back to hostel alone...
it was cold and dark...
on the way back..my tears just gt out of my ctrl and started rolling down..
how much i wish eu were beside me at dat particular moment...

Thursday again

it's thursday again...
most tiring day of the week...

but today is not an ordinary thurs...

cz convo week has started today...

from tmr onwards there'll be convo for different faculties everyday...
and as im one of the commitee member of the coll convo stall...

so i gota take duty following the shift arranged at the stall...

and my slot was from 9am to 1pm for today...

since i hd lecture on 8 to 9...i gota rush straight away to kps (which is ~18mins walking distance away fr my fac) afta class...

and then immediately afta duty...

i gota rush to medic fac,which is at the other side of uni, for tutorial..
so skipped lunch...but managed to "dapao-in" a chicken set fr the A&W stall....

by the way...there's eng class til 7 sumore right after it...

obviously i hv no time to eat at all...

and so what we (yee shin and i) did was....

WE ATE IN THE CLASS!

just imagine...we were eating chicken wings at the back when the lecturer was teaching in front...

hahahaha...
we even took pics...but too bad dat sumhow i cant gt to transfer them fr my cp...

so cant post them here =(

afta class...went for meeting for wif my team members again..
cz we nid to prepare the dedication orders...

one of the items is the keychain made using sum kind of colored plastic tubes...

the "colour plastic tubes" i meant

and afta arrangin them on a kind of plate thingy and iron over them....

T-A-D-D-A-H~!

my first piece of work

we managed to do 30smthg of them in 3 hrs time...not too bad huh.. =P

our products

Lucky, Frens-&-Family Day? = P

it's raining really heavily all day long today...
but it's kind of warm in my heart =)
actually...i was kind of gloomy this morning...
(eu should noe why if eu read my previous posts)
tot of reading up about pulp and dentinogenesis at library during my lunch break...
as prepartion for OB tutorial...
but then it was raining so heavily dat i was just so lazy to walk back to faculty afta lunch...
so gt back to room and at the end i hardly read up anythg... >,<
but thank god tat i can stil answer all ques prof posted to me..hhaha..=p
and one more gd news is tat Prof Marina (d academic adviser for my tutorial group) wil have meeting on nx friday...
so she wil hv to bring forward the meeting wif our class to nx weds...
and if so...means dat my class wil end on 12pm..
i can gt home earlier d ler~!! hahahhaa...
the class ended a bit late than it suppose to be..
but it din affect my mood at all...cz i can go home earlier nx week~! muahhaha...
then there came good news from caryn and shoun qi...
caryn finally gt to transfer to law d afta one week of waiting and "kacau-ing" d dean office...
and for shoun qi...finally she gt offered by mahsa college in dentistry d...
**hey...eu nid not hv to sit at home waiting for nx year d leh...so dun blame my sixth sense d har...hahah..**
happy for both of them by the way...jia you lo~!
afta having dinner...went for drama practice...
smthg nt really happy happened in between due to comm break down..
make me realize articulation is really important..haha..
hung on the phone wif fishy then...
we hd a great chat...
thx to her for sharing d lesson she learnt fr her previous relationship...
and the change she made now for her nx relationship...
making me realise dat i hv to really put myself into his shoes and reflect back...
thx ya fishy...**hearts** =)
and just right after i hung up the phone...my cell phone beeped...
it's mummy -- "good night, muacks my dear"
all out of sudden...i just felt so warm inside = )

Tagged by fishy

規則
(1)被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
(2)請老實回答每一個問題。
(3)不行擅自塗改題目。
(4)寫完請點10位，不可不點。
(5)點完後請通知那10位小朋友他被點到了。

× 第一大題 x

關於自己
(1) 你的名字 ：Wong XiuQi
(2) 生日呢 ：1月3日
(3) 星座呢 ：Capricorn
(4) 你男的還是女的 ：女
(5) 現在很煩嗎 ：kinda

關於友情
(1) 覺得朋友重要嗎 ：重要
(2) 有被朋友背叛過嗎 ：有
(3) 感覺是怎麼樣呢 ：很伤
(4) 如果有一天朋友都離開你 : 伤心
(5) 為什麼跟朋友吵架 ：意见不合
(6) 通常合好的原因 ：顺起自然
7) 如果被很好的朋友背叛 ：伤心
(8) 如果那個背叛的人要求合好 ：看情况

關於愛情
(1) 友情和愛情哪個重要 ：都重要
(2) 目前有男/女朋友 ：有
(3) 你很愛她/他嗎 ：当然
(4) 如果她/他要求分手：崩溃？
(5) 如果她/他劈腿 ：我相信他
(6) 如果沒有男/女友,有喜歡的人嗎 --
(7) 覺得自己喜歡的人如何 : --
(8) 覺得自己會喜歡那個人很久嗎 : --
(9) 如果有一天另一半突然離開 ：--
(10) 分手的話會不會哭 ：会

關於家人
(1) 家庭成員有誰呢 ：daddi, mummy, xuan, ling
(2) 最喜歡哪個家人 ：all
(3) 最討厭哪個家人 ：--
(4) 覺得自己的家好嗎 ：很好
(5) 承上 為什麼呢 : 就很好咯..没有理由
(6) 親情對你來說很重要嗎 ：很重要
(7) 有兄弟姐妹的話吵架都為了什麼事：小事
(8) 後來是怎麼合好的 ：自然和好

(1) 點你的人是誰/他是你的誰 ：fishy
(2) 覺得她/他是怎樣的人 ：很tough...很坚强...
(3) 你們是怎麼認識的 ：f1 同班
(4) 認識多久了呢 ：f1 开始
(5) 她/他跟你要好的程度 ：蛮要好...
(6) 她/他的优点 : 很坚强
(7) 她/他的缺點 ：讲话很快
(8) 喜歡她/他這個朋友嗎 ：喜欢

× 第二大題 ×
是非題有過的打圈 不曾有過的打叉
(1) 耳洞：[ O
](2) 染髮：[ X ]
(3) 抽菸：[ X ]
(4) 喝酒：[ O ]
(5) 寵物：[ X ]
(6) 牙套：[ O ]
(7) 手機：[ O ]
(8) 出國：[ O ]
(9) 戀愛：[ O ]
(10) 自殺：[ X ]
(11) 自拍：[ O ]
(12) 網咖：[ X ]
(13) 刺青：[ X ]
(14) 接吻：[ O ]

× 第三大題 ×
目前最想做的事
(1) 读好书
(2) 回penang, 见他
(3) 每天开心
(4) 能用右手做事

× 第四大題 ×
(1) 心目中的對象是誰 ：人
(2) 如果你的家人跟你的另一半同時跌入海,你會先救誰 ：我不pro游泳
(3) 直到現在有哪幾首歌,可以感動到你 ：很多
(4) 如果你有多啦A夢,你想要它的什麼法寶 ：任意门
(5) 看漫畫的人為何看漫畫?不看漫畫的人為何不看漫畫 ：不知道
(6) 想改掉的毛病或習慣 ：赖床
(7) 人生對你而言最重要的事情是什麼 : 充实
(8) 哪部作品從開始愛上後到現在都還很喜歡 ：不能说的秘密
(9) 覺得目前為止作過最有意義的事情 ：很多
(10) 哪一件事情讓你永生難忘：很多
(11) 如果還有來生,你要當男生還女生 ：都可以
(12) 大頭貼/視訊/手機/數位相機,最愛用哪一個拍照 ：手机
(13) 寫到這 你累了嗎 ：累
(14) 學校食堂爛不爛 : 还好
(15) 未來有什麼計畫 ：很多
(16) 最想去的國家 ：maldives
(17) 被邀請玩过遊戲的感覺：不懂
(18) 如果你是狗,你最想當 ：toy poddle
(19) 友情和愛情,你會選擇哪邊 ：都选
(20) 目前有在追喜歡的人嗎 ：没有
(21) 目前最煩惱的事 ：多
(22) 你喜歡裝色嗎 ：什么是装色？
(23) 你有懷疑過生髮水廣告的真實性嗎 ：有
(24) 想不想去神奇寶貝樂園 ：啥？
(25) 認識新朋友第一眼會看什麼地方 ：不懂哦
(26) 最想去台灣什麼地方 ：垦丁
(27) 你崇尚名牌吗？有时
(28) 有錢的話想包養誰 ：自己花
(29) 如果會魔法，你最想要改變什麼 ：回到过去
(30) 你願意花多少時間去等你所喜歡的人 ：到我不爱
(31) 究竟是陪在身邊的人重要?還是心裡的人重要 ：心里的
(32) 假如你有一千萬,你最想拿來做什麼 ：旅行
(33) 世界上最值得你留戀的是什麼 ：幸福的时刻
(34) 什麼樣的異性最吸引你 ：自己想咯
(35) 第一次性經驗是幾歲 ：----
(36) 現在開心嗎 ：不是很开心
(37) 最多便秘幾天 ：忘了
(38) 有什麼事是你覺得一輩子一定要去做的 ：做自己想做的事
(39) 目前有沒有什麼事,是你不想做非要去做的 ：有
(40) 如果有一天,火星人是我們的祖先,那你會去認親戚嗎 ：not a bad idea
(41) 有沒有想過哪一天自己是怎麼死的 ：有
(42) 如過你告白失敗你會怎麼辦 ：不知
(43) 假使有一天被退學了,要怎麼面對父母 ：不懂
(44) 你最喜歡的事物是 ：睡觉，什么都不用做
(45) 你喜歡我嗎 ：谁？
(46) 最喜歡的異性穿著 ：顺眼就好
(47) 試過最有效的減肥方法是 ：不懂
(48) 你喜歡瘦瘦高高還是嬌小可愛的女生 ：中等
(49) 你覺得自己哪裏最性感 ：不懂
(50) 吃大便跟吃ㄆㄨㄣ你寧願吃哪一個 ：.....
(51) 如果身邊的朋友或另一半有人偷吃，你會如何 ：没想过
(52) 喜歡被愛還是愛人 ：both
(53) 你覺得偷偷的愛比較好還是光明的愛 ：光明正大
(54) 為蝦米會有點名遊戲 ：？？？
(55) 累了嗎 ：累
(56) 近期最開心的事情 ：和他3G
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Left-handed

hd PBL(problem-based learning) session yesterday...
and our task for ytd was to observe the real condition on how the dentists handle their patients... so we were allowed to tour around the clinical centre in the uni...
it was an eye-opening and interesting experience actually...
gt to see in close distance how dental surgeries and treatment are done...
but there's smthg really critical dat i've gt to noe...
that is....dentistry is totally a RIGHT-HANDER industry, which all the facilities
-be it the dental chair, the instruments used or even the techniques taught to numb the nerves-
all are designed to customize the right-handers....
and this is a real big problem to me who's a left-hander...
it's the first time in my 19-year-long life dat im kind of regret dat im left-handed...
cz all the while i dun really feel the inconvenience of being left-handed...
though most of the thgs we use in daily life like are meant for right-handed...
it's stil not dat bad as we can stil use them..
even guitars too already hv models for left-handed....
so i nv tot dat it would be dat bad...
and it's impossible dat there's no dentist on earth who's left-handed right...
but after asking only i knew dat thr's really no dental facilities for left-handed...
all the left-handed seniors have to force themselves, training themselves to use their right hand too...
tat's the only way...
and i was like gt a strike on my head...
how am i supposed to switch to right hand to do all these...?
and it's not just doing simple unimportant routine such as eating...
but to deal wif real patients~!
but i gt no choice besides trying to pick it up...
i tried eating in the "NORMAL" kind of way..
but i just cant ler...spilt everywhere..>,< and daddi suggested me on trying to cut papers using sccissors using right hand...
arrrr~
i mean like afta so hard struggling thru spm and matrix...
and finally i gt into wat i really wan...
but it turns out to be so...and i can kind of understand how caryn feels d...
really hope dat i can make it...
or else changing course wil my only choice... T.T
kampatae to myself...