i tot i was doing well...

i tol myself nt to cry...

i mz stay strong...

i mz do better than d past...

i mz nt brg him any trouble...

it's nt fair to her..

i mz nt do anythg dat hurts anyone of us...

i mz ctrl myself....

i tot i could handle it well, wif a smile hung on...

i tot i could hide it up...

but i failed today...

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wish this wil be d last time...

d last time eu are the reason of my tearsdrop...

Hair

4 yrs ago...

"ask eu smthg...is it true that guys like gals wif long hair..?"

"erm..hmm...kinda...cz like more pretty ane.."

"but i hv short hair leh..."

"aiya...now schooling cant ma...nx time ler..haha..."

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x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.

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2 yrs ago..

"what if 1 day ur dear play the Secret then gt dissapear like him ki how ar...?"

"haha...gong gong eh eu...mana wil happen eh sha gua..."

"mayb eh ma...if really happen leh hw ar..."

"ur dear dear ma play it too ler...i nt duno piano too pun..haha.."

"ya hor..eu go and keep that kind of hair la...sure very pretty eh..."

"i tot eu like long hair eh..."

"like dat nt very short la...very nice eh..."

"okie....i keep it if i can...haha..."

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x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x

a yr ago...

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"yin they all eh hair long jor, only mine >,< "

"of cz ler...eu keep on cutting it leh..."

" but very messy mer...beh tahan..."

" eu gota tahan ler...dun say i look down on eu...i bet eu sure cant keep it long eh la...hahah..."

" who say so...?"

" i say mia la..."

" okie...bcz of eu...bcz of what eu said just now...i sure keep it long..."

"really boh...later few months nia cut again..hahaha.."

"i wil~! eu wait and see la...hmp..."

x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x

now...

finally my hair already get long...

but it doesnt mean anythg to eu anymore...

mayb...everythg is predestined...

jz hope eu really gt ur hang fuk this time...

=')

爱情不能作比较

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车子里收音机空气中 还飘著雨

在这个深夜里 你应该在她那里

有多久没再遇见你

房里没了你的气息

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我可以填满了生活里每寸空隙

我知道不容易但我仍试著继续

听说你比从前开心 我还能有怎样的情绪

除了祝福我不想再多说一句

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她很好 她多好

这些我并不想要知道

再难忘掉 多狂烈的拥抱 这回忆她怎麽给的到

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她多好 和我不同的好

最後是谁不重要

因为我知道 爱情不能做比较
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因为我不要 你拿我和她做比较

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i'd done my part trusting eu whole-heartedly..

it's time for me to accept the cruel fact eu are gone...

it's time for me to stop finding justification for eu...

eu hd moved on and so do i hv to...

it's really time for me to say bye to the past and look forward...

i must...in fact i hv no choice...i hv to...

im sure i can make it thru...togthr wif my broken heart....=')

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bye doggie. bye brownie. bye WeiJin

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The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

-Psalm 34:18-

洒脱

原来

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我没有自己想像中洒脱

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same or different?

just finished studyin...anatomy is killing me >,<

bumped into shu cheat at coll's study room afta dinner..
she came over to meet up wif her coursemates for assign...
it's the first time i met her afta matriculation though we are both in the same uni..haha...
mayb UM is too big d..haha...
since we hd so long din gt to meet d...
so decided to grab a cup of coffee at her coll's mamak stall afta she completed her task..
togthr wif chiawen, yan hong & tjun....
it's like a little gathering of H3...
but left out shoun qi and nee ping...they are nt in UM...
too bad >,<

but overall it was a nice meet up.....hd sum random chats...

and we came across the topic of

"is getting a life partner of the same career or diff career better..? "
it was an interesting ques...
the couple (tjun+yh) said of the same career is better...
study more thgs in common...
but im more of the latter stand lo...
why?
erm...undeniable you wil noe more thgs, academically, in common...
going thru more or less the same kind of routine...
but wouldnt it be nice too to noe more bout thgs other than ur own field thru him/her...?
it's like ur life wouldnt be only narrowed down to a specific scope...
nt only career actually....but same goes to personalities, hobbies n thinking...
it gives eu the opportunity to explore more of the world...learning fr each other in a sense...
eg. she enjoys movies while he enjoys travelling...

then she gts to travel (to accompany him) while he may fall for movies too thru her...

difference in point of view would also make us learn to view thgs fr different angles...
but of cz nt dat the extremely contradicting kind ler...

stil sharing the same life value atleast...

nt like one enjoys clubbing alot while another one is of the nurdy book worm type >,<

and to me....life partners should be d complement of each other...
whr eu hv what i dun hv while i hv what eu dun hv...
n 2gthr we are complete... =)
that's what i think ler...what about eu guys out there...?

sept 12-我怀念的

我问为什麼　 那女孩传简讯给我

而你为什麼　不解释　低著头沉默

我该相信你很爱我　不愿意敷衍我　

还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什麼　我不再是你的快乐　

可是为什麼　却苦笑说我都懂了

自尊常常将人拖著把爱都走曲折　

假装了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸

狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说

我怀念的是一起做梦

我怀念的是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日

也记得那一首歌

记得那片星空　

最紧的右手　最暖的胸口

我怀念的是无言感动

　 我怀念的是绝对炽热

我怀念的是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背後　

我记得我颤抖著 记得感觉汹涌　

最美的烟火　最长的相拥

谁爱的太自由　 谁过头太远了

　 谁要走我的心　 谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走　

谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重

　

我放手

我让座

假洒脱

谁懂我多麼不舍得

太爱了

　

所以我　 没有哭　没有说

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sept 12... it's 12 again...