♥ of Chinese New Year

so it was Chinese New Year!

A perfect timing when everyone would just drop anythg in hand and enjoy this special festival with their beloved one

- family & friends -

=)

Well, this year's CNY is just a short one for me.

sad case.

it was my study week and i had exam on the 5th day.

so i only gave myself a 2 day leave from studying.

pathetic right?

BUT still, enjoyed alot!

=))

as for Reunion Dinner,

stil we stick to tradition and had steamboat at home...

helped up mummy and makcik in the kitchen ...

and guess what?

we discovered this GIGANTIC ONION mummy bought..

[ xuan posing with the onion ]

[Some of the ingredients for steamboat.]

early in the morning of the 1st day,

went over to Dear's place to pai ni.

and attached along, paying visit around.

=)

[ Say Happy Bunny Year! ]

it was his turn to come over my side then in the evening.

*hehe*

visited Chek Gong's house after having dinner...

it has been an unwritten rule that my whole big family would gather over there every year..

so eu wil see more than 70 pairs of shoes scattered at Chek Gong's doorstep.

HAHAHA!

well, this is the fun part of having a big family.

=)))

[ Family Photo taken by Nee Kuku ]

* how come dear is missing? *

must be busy chatting my cousins bout cars!

[ My forever "Passionate" Daddi and Mummy ]

[ Eggy Dear and I ]

[ Cousins! ]

Noted my tomato-red face?

yup, i got kind of tipsy after having a few sips of 19.5% wine dear bought daddi.

i was not drunk, but fallen aslp for like 30 mins?

im seriously not good in drinking..

HAHAHAHA!

>,<

and we did had a great time baby-sitting the kids too!

dear got his 1st experience in carrying a baby..

and i could see the "father-ness" in him!

he was like keep look at the kid, smilling, saying "SO CUTE!"

*should had taken his pic that time*

HAHAHA!

[ xuan and cuttie Ah Liang ]

How good would it be if everyday is CNY!

Queens Day

i was too bored at home..
so texted dear and spontaneously decided to go Queensbay..
and another purpose of mine was....
To play wif his Doinkie!
=PP

He was so excited telling me about the new apps he gt last nite...
HAHAHA!

so basically we just walked around aimlessly...
spotted a simple nice dress but too bad it's too big for me
=(
but stil grabbed 2 shorts and a basic..
and over here, wana say sry to HIM due to my undecisive...
*sry lo k...dun kek ki la! smile~ *


while passing by sumwhr near Guess...
a Taiwanese tour guide approached us, trying to sell us sort of couple photo + tour package to Taiwan...
did a bit of chit-chat...
d funniest part was he tot i was only in high school...
and dear answered “对啊，有保养”
XD

b4 back home, had my favourtie Classic Fries from HollandFries
=)

The Flyer

Camwhored while waiting for the fries..

Classic Fries is the love..

Lastly,

On the way back =)

What a great day!

c=

Im back again!

yes, done wif my papers ytd and now im back to my home sweet home d!
yeeeee~

by the way, the journey back today was not a pleasant one..
this is my 1st time to take bus back fr bukit jalil...
ever since pudu is temporarily shuted down for renovation,
i opted Aeroline fr KLCC which is more convenient...
but since zhang yi and shyan were going back togthr today...
so we shared a cab to bkt jalil...
but it took me almost half a day to reach home...
credits to the ticket seller who tricked me...
*sigh*

wanted to grab a ticket for konsortium..
but it's full and the gal at the counter recommended me CityLink...
(dun really quite remember la...wateva it is.. >,< )
and she answered me " ya, non-stop to penang. seperti konsortium."
so i was okay, i wil take it then...
and who noes when i gt on the bus only i knew it'll be stopping at butterworth 1st...
sumore in btw stopped twice...
took me 6hr +...
im sure this wil be my 1st and last time there!
i better stick to Aeroline stil...
geram betul!
my mood was a bit spoilt bcz of that...

BUT..a big but here...
my good mood was back once i reached and saw dear was already standing there wif a big smile on for me!
*hugs*
and ah ma was already waiting me wif a super big bak chang steamed hot at home too~
now eu noe why im always dat pumped of cuming home!
*winkwink*

dear,

jiayou for ur exam o!

im sure eu can do it~

*hearts*

=))

Great Day ♥

had a real great day!
my family came down to KL, and dear followed too this time =)
he was kind of nervous n paise actually...
cz it's the 1st time he's wif my family without me...
and they stopped at perak and overnited at my uncle's house last nite b4 cuming over to KL this early morning....
so he was like kept on " cham...left me alone wif d 4 adults now..."
hahahaha >,< .
well, they reached my place around 12...
bringing togther my favourite perak's salt-baked chicken!
*yum yum*

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headed to midvalley...
and daddi was making fun out of the GPS system mummy bought all d way til we reach...
" just now i refused to use the way it suggested, it said " dun be so stubborn, just follow me!" "
yup, this is my cute dad! XD
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afta lunch, daddi suggested us to split....
MPH is a must go for daddi in kl...
mummy and ling shopped around while we can go paktor =))
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and one more thing....
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*ta-dah!!*

i find eu finally!

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it caught my eyes once i saw it when i went groceries shopping wif sherlynn on study week...

tot of getting it back in penang...

but then they dun hv this colour d...

many of the outlets in kl that hv no stock left for this colour too...

they only hv blue and red...

i tot i cant get it d...

but, luck is on my side!

i was so excited when i saw this displayed there!

and i was smilling all the way afta getting it...

dear said im gong mia...

happy til like dat =p

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till here then....

i have to be back to books again...

~xoxo~

If

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if i could be nt dat soft-hearted

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if i could just ignore everythg, doing thgs i want to

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if i could preserve more for myself

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if i were nt blind by all those

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if i could be nt so perasan =P

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thgs would hd gt much more simplier

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and i could do better perhaps

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bt why i just cant?

** thinkin =) **

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fever again....geram >,<

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Time To Love - T-ara & Supernova

Lyrics:

good person, eu are the first love to me
the person that taught me love
never forget you
I remember you
I remember only eu
Perhaps I’ll see you, so I’m wearing the clothes you bought me
And I cut my hair short like you used to like it
To pass by the way I used to walk wif you
I went round the long way thinking maybe you’d be there
i stil have the same phone number
Thinking mayb you’ll look for me again, my house is the same
In my mini hompy I just have the songs we used to listen togthere
Thinking mayb you’ll look and you’ll come back again
We stil cant forget
We stil want each other
We’re stil in love
Separated, honestly I miss you
I miss you like crazy
I’ll wait for you no matter what, I’ll wait for you til the end
I stop to think, im standing still
Good person, eu’re the first love to me
The person that taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I only remember you
Thinkin tat mayb I’ll see you, and if I see you my heart wil tremble
Thinking that my heart will sink and you’ll see me dry and wrenched
To avoid the way I used to walk wif you
I went round the long way thinking mayb you’d be there
I already changed my phone number
Mayb I wil keep thinking of you so I moved houses
But in my mouth thr’s are stil words unsaid
Thinkin mayb you’ll look and you’ll come back again
I want to tell you to start again
But I cant hear you nor see you even though im looking for eu
Soaked by the pouring rain
Im going to the place where we first met
I feel so pathetic
Thr’s stil a warm spot in my heart for you
You can bear it
Therefore I wil be able to bear too
But It will be so hard, I loved you so much
Even though I tried really hard, I cant help it
Thinkin that perhaps I wil see you by chance
And you will look at me
In front of the mirror I wipe my tears
Thinkin mayb you will come

i like it so much~!

nice music. nice mv. and nice lyrics!

i like the gal and guy wif short hair =)

i tot i was doing well...

i tol myself nt to cry...

i mz stay strong...

i mz do better than d past...

i mz nt brg him any trouble...

it's nt fair to her..

i mz nt do anythg dat hurts anyone of us...

i mz ctrl myself....

i tot i could handle it well, wif a smile hung on...

i tot i could hide it up...

but i failed today...

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wish this wil be d last time...

d last time eu are the reason of my tearsdrop...

Hair

4 yrs ago...

"ask eu smthg...is it true that guys like gals wif long hair..?"

"erm..hmm...kinda...cz like more pretty ane.."

"but i hv short hair leh..."

"aiya...now schooling cant ma...nx time ler..haha..."

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x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.

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2 yrs ago..

"what if 1 day ur dear play the Secret then gt dissapear like him ki how ar...?"

"haha...gong gong eh eu...mana wil happen eh sha gua..."

"mayb eh ma...if really happen leh hw ar..."

"ur dear dear ma play it too ler...i nt duno piano too pun..haha.."

"ya hor..eu go and keep that kind of hair la...sure very pretty eh..."

"i tot eu like long hair eh..."

"like dat nt very short la...very nice eh..."

"okie....i keep it if i can...haha..."

.

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x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x

a yr ago...

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"yin they all eh hair long jor, only mine >,< "

"of cz ler...eu keep on cutting it leh..."

" but very messy mer...beh tahan..."

" eu gota tahan ler...dun say i look down on eu...i bet eu sure cant keep it long eh la...hahah..."

" who say so...?"

" i say mia la..."

" okie...bcz of eu...bcz of what eu said just now...i sure keep it long..."

"really boh...later few months nia cut again..hahaha.."

"i wil~! eu wait and see la...hmp..."

x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x.X.X.X.x.x.x.x

now...

finally my hair already get long...

but it doesnt mean anythg to eu anymore...

mayb...everythg is predestined...

jz hope eu really gt ur hang fuk this time...

lesson

""let it go....eu can hv better choice perhaps..."
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" it shouldnt be everythg of ur life...eu are stil young..."

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"eu hd been doin well too in the pass 14years without him b4 dat...thr's no big deal...eu are only goin back to the very 1st point...im sure eu can do it..."



thgs arent as simple as eu tot when it's nt on eu...
exspecially when eu noe it's our own fault...

and try hard to compensate,,,

tat's wat i hd learnt....

dedication : 借口

翻着我们的照片

想念若隐若现

去年的冬天

我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸

对着我说再见

来不及听见

你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我

也许已经很难回头

我知道是自己错过

请再给我一个理由说你不爱我

就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我

请不要把分手当作你的请求

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的借口

请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果 我也能够承受

我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容

如果要走 请你记得我

first day of hol

back to penang...
gt up on 8smthg...
went usm to meet up bei bei at 9 smthg...
tot of only finding her nx week...
wana brg her for laksa...she missed it during her last trip...
but she has holiday and taking today's flight back to johor...
so we made it this morning...save laksa for nx time ler...
then reached home around 11...
duno what to do...
so decided to wash my car...
my makcik said dat im kind of crazy, washing car under the hot sun...
and called me to leave it...she wil later wash it for me...
but i insisted...i just wana make myself bz...
so she teached me how to use the brush and pipe set mum just bought...
it's actually be designed only base on simple physic theories..
but amazingly it makes car washing much more easier...
credits to the smart innovative ppl who designed it...
done around 1smthg...

my baby smart afta taking bath...clean leh..? XD

rested...went paktor wif my car...
drove around...really nid to gt more familiar on how to drive it...
and smthg happened out of my expectation...
tried to ctrl myself...
went back home straight away and took a nap...
gt up on 3smthg...
he said he's nt going..
sumhow i just feel like going...but it's weird to go alone...
but duno wat to do at home...
i drove there too at d end...
reached but saw it was there...
i patah balik..better not still...
i just seriously duno what the hell me myself really doin...stupid me...

it's 12 again

it's 12.13pm now...

the calendar turns fr 11 aug to 12 aug...

yup...it's 12 again...

and i just cant stop myself thinkin back the past 45 12s...

mixed feeling

just back fr kps for duty...
my shift for today is from 9 til the stall close....
my leader actually planned to let guys to do this slot...
but due to my pack time table...i really hv no time to exchange my slot wif the others...
so thr's no other choice but to accept it...
when i joined...i were tol at the lastest til 12 nia...
but end up to be so...this is the 1st and also the last coll activity i join i bet...
as thr's nobody that i noe duty tonite..
n the brainless pengarah stil wana drag on wif a pointless meeting wif the seniors in-charge ..
which might last for hours...perhaps only can gt back on 3smthg if i gota wait?
so i hd to walk back alone again...
but this time even further away than fr my fac...
it was really cold and quiet...
i was kinda sked actually..
tot of calling sumone on the phone...in case anythg happen..
but it's already 1 smthg~~! everyone sleeps d...
so wat i did was gripping tight on the umbrella...
and my cell phone in hand...praying hard dat i'll be safe...
thank god dat thr's no "suspects" appear....phew..
on the way back...many random pits and bits of us played in my mind...
the happy moments...anniversaries...argues..the future plan we used to look forward to...
the break ups and patching back..the courages and faith we used to hv in each other...
and now he's tired...so tired dat feel like giving up...
i noe he can hv better choice...i dun deserve him...
but selfishness is the nature of human being....
the biggest weakness of human being...
i feel very very bad for the hurt and pain he feels....
i wish to compansate...
i noe letting him go is perhaps better for him...
but to say "yes" to it....to let go are really hard....
mayb what i really need is time...
time to accept and learn to put down the selfishness in me....
learn to love him in a diff way...

lonely night

just back fr faculty...
it's the dental sfs nite today...
overall the function was stil okay...
not very fun nor it's very boring la...
it ended around 10 actually...
but then afta dat hd photo session and sum refreshment...
and all of them wil spend their time wif their buddy at this time...
the whole group of ppl of the same buddy line wil take pics..
sit down...chit-chat while eating...
and as i hv no buddy...
so i was kind of like sitting just aside alone...
though there are seniors dat's kind enough dat ask me to join them chatting...
but stil sumhow they are talking bout their buddy stuff...
which im kind of akward to be there or to join their conversation...
so i left afta around an hour and as my roomate was chatting wif her buddies...
might til kinda late...so she asked me to gt back by my own 1st...
since that i hv no choice but to walk back to hostel alone...
it was cold and dark...
on the way back..my tears just gt out of my ctrl and started rolling down..
how much i wish eu were beside me at dat particular moment...

endless sleep = P

woke up quite early this morning..around 6..
as i gt to bed 9 smthg around 10 last nite...
but i skipped class though my class starts on 8...
cz i noe i would not able to concentrate at all even i go for it...
so rather not going and cont sleeping afta sending out a msg...
i guess i've spent more than 12 hrs sleeping per day recently...hahah...
cz i noe i wil be doing stupid thgs again if im awake...
so the best way is to SLEEP = p

misunderstanding

went gurney wif dear today, watched transformer...
it suppose to be another great date b4 im leaving for uni...
mayb it's not, i thought it would be atleast...
but thgs dont turn into the way i wish to....
i ruined everythg wif a phrase "it's not my idea by the way..."
but i can surely tell that i said dat nt bcz i dun think i was wrong..
if i think dat way...i wouldnt had even bothered to post the last post this morning...
bout the movie...
it's not as what you think at all...
i admit i was sumhow a bit "mang jang"...
movie delayed..din gt to contact heng directly...
ting too din reply a okie or no...
kind of worry nobody pick up ling...
and my eyes were already tired cz lack of slp recently...
wearing contact lens making them more tired...
if im not willing to watch the movie...
i wouldnt hd been the one who asked you for this movie...
if im not sincere of accompanying eu for it...
i wouldnt hd been sitting infront of my lappy to check if it's showing once i jumped out of bed...
i've said
" i said i wil change mean i wil change.."
hope dat eu wil see my change...or atleast my effort in it **praying hard**

TAKEN

on the way to perodua...

"you watch TAKEN b4..?"

"no leh...why...?"

"go watch ler...and eu wil understand what i've doing all the while.."

dear gt so i the dvd and so i watched it...haha...
the story is all about a 17-year-old, Kim travelling to Europe wif her fren, Amanda...
as Kim is below 18, she needs permission from both her parents...
her mum agrees but her dad, who's a former kind of spy for the goverment, disagree...
he thinks it's dangerous for two gals like them to travel there without any adult.....
but stil he agrees as Kim lie to him dat they wil only be going to Paris and visiting Musuems...
In Paris...a friendly young man suggests that they can share a taxi to the house they are living and so they do, thinking of "why not.."
however...he's actually working for an Albanian criminal organization which put the young gals on drugs and force them to be prostitute >,<

and yea...i really understand the reason of everythg eu want me to do now...

im sry for being stubborn and making eu worry all these while =(

A New Start

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR EU

Glenn Medeiros

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If I hd to live my life without eu near me

The days would all be empty

The nites would seem so long

With you i see forever so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

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Our dreams are young

And we both know they'll take us

Where we want to go

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Hold me now

Touch me now

I dont want to live without eu

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Nothing's gonna change my love for eu

Eu ought know by now how much i love eu

One thing eu can be sure of

I'll nv ask for more than your love

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Nothing's gonna change my love for eu

Eu ought know by now how much i love eu

The world may change my whole life thru

But nothing's gonna change my love for eu

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an old song which im so into recently specially dedicated eu...

im sure i can make it thru and fill back the lost part in urs

kampatae qi =)