miss home

only 1 lecture and OB practical class to attend today...
so this allows me to gt up a bit bit later...
nt too late...an hr later atleast...
i gt kind of better d when i gt out of bed tis morning...
body temp hd a slight decrease d...
but then afta an hr of lecture...
d fever was back
backed to room, immediately took paracetemol again...
my frens tol me to take 2 tablets of them...
but due to my body weight dat's much more below average...
im sked such dosage would be too heavy for me...
so just took one and rested on the bed...
no more fever...*yipee*
went OB practical at 2pm...
but nt even 1 hr...
again the FEVER was BACK !
my whole body was like burning =(
thank God that today's lesson was just tooth carving...
and Dr Marina was not in...
so i sneaked back on 3 smthg...
bought a pack of KOOLFEVER pad fr the shop in my coll...
pad 1 on my forehead and again on the bed i slept
til now only i gt up...
but then the fever is stil there...grrrr!
it's time for me to take med again i guess >,<

my 'chan' looks

now i noe why ppl would say fallin sick would make eu homesick...

i really miss penang

i really miss home

last but nt least,

i really miss eu badly...

i wana go home ='(

**praying hard i wil gt well soon**

sick

i was stil okie when going to bed last nite...

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but in less than few hours time...

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i woke up wif terrible sorethroat...

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and then fever + cough pulak afta lunch...

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why would i fall sick at this time eh...

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exam is cuming leh T.T

let me go home~!

jz finished packing...
and i found dat i gt just so many stuffs to bring back...
im sure daddi wil be laughing at me again...
tot of bringing back atleast a book for each subject...
but they are really too heavy d...
if i were to bring all of them....
they weight me atleast 10kg i guess...>,<>" nid not brg so many books mia...cz eu wil end up hv no mood studying too eh...so just brg materials for one subject wil do...if eu can finish revising dat subject tio very geng d..."
it's just about half a day more to go from now...
im really looking forward to it lo...
it's 3 weeks fr i last went back d...it's the longest period of time dat i din get back so far...
i really miss everythg in penang...
can the clock just ticks faster plz?

mixed feeling

just back fr kps for duty...
my shift for today is from 9 til the stall close....
my leader actually planned to let guys to do this slot...
but due to my pack time table...i really hv no time to exchange my slot wif the others...
so thr's no other choice but to accept it...
when i joined...i were tol at the lastest til 12 nia...
but end up to be so...this is the 1st and also the last coll activity i join i bet...
as thr's nobody that i noe duty tonite..
n the brainless pengarah stil wana drag on wif a pointless meeting wif the seniors in-charge ..
which might last for hours...perhaps only can gt back on 3smthg if i gota wait?
so i hd to walk back alone again...
but this time even further away than fr my fac...
it was really cold and quiet...
i was kinda sked actually..
tot of calling sumone on the phone...in case anythg happen..
but it's already 1 smthg~~! everyone sleeps d...
so wat i did was gripping tight on the umbrella...
and my cell phone in hand...praying hard dat i'll be safe...
thank god dat thr's no "suspects" appear....phew..
on the way back...many random pits and bits of us played in my mind...
the happy moments...anniversaries...argues..the future plan we used to look forward to...
the break ups and patching back..the courages and faith we used to hv in each other...
and now he's tired...so tired dat feel like giving up...
i noe he can hv better choice...i dun deserve him...
but selfishness is the nature of human being....
the biggest weakness of human being...
i feel very very bad for the hurt and pain he feels....
i wish to compansate...
i noe letting him go is perhaps better for him...
but to say "yes" to it....to let go are really hard....
mayb what i really need is time...
time to accept and learn to put down the selfishness in me....
learn to love him in a diff way...